The morning after pains

It's almost 5:30am. Been up for three hours. I read journals and commented on some. I finished two word fill-in puzzles.

My neck and jaw hurt from the ECT. One of the doctors asked about my insurance. I told him they aren't paying anyone. I feel awful they don't pay. I need those ECT's.

Not sure what my plans are for today. Margaret wants new glasses and her hair done. I told her she should. We'll see.

I hope the weather is nice. I'd like to go outside and do some yard work.

I baked a chocolate cake from scratch, the other day. It was good. I took some to one our friends and gave some to my daughter.

I've been having these weird things going on. I will think of something and I feel like I've been there before and then get a shockwave over my body. It's like deja vu but I get these zaps. It's like a small electric charge. And no it's not let over ECT electricity. This has been going on for weeks.

Voices are being disruptive..at least they are trying. I'm able to push em out. There's two voices speaking clearly and another whispering. I am dealing with them.

Quitting smoking was easier then trying to stop the voices. I battle them everyday. The energy I spend on getting rid of the tremendous. I think it's time to put some music on.

Before my ECT yesterday, I had an anxiety attack. I know I need them even though my insurance pays sporaticlly. I felt uneasy, scared. The staff helped ease my fears. They are a friendly lot.

I see my pdoc tomorrow. It's for my 5 minute shot.

I'm at a loss.

Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,

Dave