Wednesday, September 9, 2009

the conflict

I've recently gone back to my church. I felt a strong sense of purpose to go back. It called me. For many months I heard the call and disregarded it or put it away in the far reaches of my mind. I am happy with this decision. I am not going back to "cure" my illness. I went back to get connected.

I tend to ignore what's important and what's the right thing. I have been an awful man my whole life. I don't want that distinction anymore. I want inner peace.

The elders were just here..Elder Ludlow and Elder Fredrickson. I am full of confusion ( I was confused before they came around). Not because of them but because of the message.

Goals I had none. I made a committment to do a couple of things. I now have two goals. I hope they turn into habits. I will make them my habits.

I am not the same man that joined the church years ago. I had conflictions back then as well. I fear that will happen this time too.

I have a pdoc appointment right now. I will post more later.

Dave

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